As you know, my journey of getting to know Christ was a hassle. It took years of unraveling the pain from my past and the detrimental paths I took because of it. I am now in a relationship with God that has been stronger than ever but don't be fooled. I too have my days when I struggle in my walk of faith. There have been so many experiences in my life that helped shape and mold me to who I am now. I am still unraveling my life with God and I must say it is a beautiful journey.
One person that heavily influences my life spiritually is my partner, Elijah. Heres a quick backround of our relationship: We have known each other for the past several years, we started off as friends and the journey was not easy but because of our process we are in a place where we can challenge each other spiritually, mentally, and intellectually. In the beginning of our relationship I noticed baggage and weight from my past began to surface more than I could handle. It was like everything I had bottled up throughout the years was catching up to me and I could no longer hide it. I had this fear that one day Elijah would turn against me. At this point in my life I was used to hearing stories about how guys are players, I assumed Elijah was the same. At this time, I was still in the process of getting to know him. Elijah is the type of man that loves with an open heart, he is very patient and kind. I thought he was too good to be true. In retaliation, I did everything I could to try and get rid of him. I allowed myself to be led by fear, I figured if I push him away he wouldn't have a chance to hurt me.
I was so afraid of getting hurt, barriers went up and I allowed my heart to harden towards Elijah. I was too blinded by my actions to see I was hurting him emotionally. The only thing I surrendered too was my flesh. The part that blew me away was how his love took over, it never faded with my harsh words, never let the offenses of my actions cause his love to wither away. Elijah gave me something I never experienced from a friend, love without caution. The process of me letting my guards down took years, I was stubborn and allowed my distorted perspective of people get the best of me. The truth is, I was let down in my past, but I shouldn't have let my pre-conceived notion of Elijah get the best of me.
Through it all, Elijah stayed faithful to me, not once did he judge me for my actions. He always considers me before himself, he sacrificed years of his life to help me become a better person. His love placed me in a position where I knew I was secure enough to be vulnerable with him. I can't thank him enough for that. It was through Elijah's strong will and love that I was able to experience the higher calling, God. I figured, if somebody could love me this much and can see past my mess for who I truly am then there must be a God.
Before Elijah came around I saw God as somebody who will only accept me on my good days, I was used to putting on a mask not knowing God can see right through it. I experienced God for the first time personally, in my relationship with Elijah. I believe in my heart that God called us to be together with purpose. Ultimately, God places everyone on this earth with purpose, if you are alive and breathing best believe you are on this earth with purpose! I want to add that there are many great men in this world but just like Devon Franklin said "There are two types of men, ones who inflict pain and ones who heal pain" I am blessed to be on a journey with a man who helped heal my pain and I am now using it for purpose.
What I learned: We are not meant to walk through the journey of life alone, we need people to help us learn and grow. The world would't be as fascinating as it is today without people. I now know God is here to help us, to love us, to restore us.
I want to encourage you today to invite God into the areas of your life that are weighing you down, He is here for you and wants to help you. Will you invite Him in?
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