High school definitely taught me how to be resilient. Everything I faced helped me become stronger. From deep insecurities, to fleeting friendships, from feelings of unworthiness, to teachers limiting my intellect and doubting my skills. To facing my first heart break. Looking back I know it all it came with purpose. Far too long I thought every calamity in my life was used to take me out, the truth is..it only made me stronger. I am no victim, I am an overcomer. I accept the fact if I am here on this earth, I have a purpose to fulfill. My purpose and dreams will not flourish if I chose to stay stuck in the mindset that my life would have been different if I did not make poor decisions, if it wasn't for the poor decisions I made I wouldn't have the knowledge I have today. Life is about progression, everything is a learning experience. Through failure I learned to succeed. I sometimes find myself in a negative mindset that my life would have been better if I had a stronger foundation. Its those very thoughts that hinder my growth process. The truth is there are many things that could have been different in my life but holding on to the past is not benefiting my future. The past is the past, lets move on to make a brighter future. I strongly believe everything that happens in this life whether good or bad is used to shape us into the people we are truly meant to be. I am on a journey of unraveling my story and finding confidence to apply the strengths and gifts God granted me. We are all born with a gift, I challenge you to discover your gift and use it to positively influence those around you. Throughout my blogs I will discuss how I was shaped and came to know Christ.
Up until I turned twenty-one things in my life made no sense to me, I felt I was running in circles and making the same mistakes. I wish I knew then that God will allow a person to go through cycles until they understand why they were put through the test to begin with. I was broken on the inside and hurt others in the process of discovering who I was. I did not know the root cause of my pain, I knew my actions were questionable but I refused to allow myself to pause to figure out what was hurting me. It was like I intentionally avoided facing the truth because of fear. I was afraid once I discovered suppressed emotions I would not like what I saw. Well.. thats exactly what happened. Now I know why they say "Ignorance is bliss" There was so much baggage I had, childhood secrets, and hidden memories that ultimately led to my road of destruction. I allowed lies I believed about myself to manifest in my life. I learned running from issues will prolong the process of healing. I found healing through God, but it was not as simple as it sounds. God works through us in different ways. As I mentioned in my previous blog, God will sometimes send people our way or allow us to undergo circumstances in order for us to experience His divine intervention. My story is dear to my heart, I discovered God's unconditional love through Elijah. For years I struggled thinking I was not worthy of God's love but having Elijah by my side, encouraging me, motivating me, loving me, never judging me, always putting me before himself helped me come to the conclusion there is a God who loves unconditionally. It was at this divine moment I decided to change my life around for the better. But, before we get there I have many stories I need to unravel with you.
Stay Tuned
Be Blessed! =]
Comments