Many times I observed couples from the outside and assumed everything was peaches and cream. I saw pictures on social media of couples smiling together but blissfully ignored the price that is necessary to pay in relationships. The truth is, every couple has their story and its never easy. The ones who are willing to make a full commitment to each other are the relationships well worth your time. In my relationship, my partner is emotionally stronger than I am. Through his emotional and mental strength he took on the role of being my hero to rescue me.
There were many times I tried to abandon myself in an attempt to find what I was searching for in a relationship. I will tell you, the real me was exposed, and it wasn't pretty. There were many times I claimed to be looking for genuine love but soon as I got a glimpse of love I tried to flee from it. Through it all my partner consistently pursued me. It was at crucial times like this that determined whether or not I was ready to receive love.
The process of learning how to receive love is intimidating, it puts me in a position to be dangerously vulnerable. Love has its way of changing me for the better, it chases away my fears and insecurities. I know from experience learning how to receive love is easier said than done. It's a process of taking steps out my comfort zone to open my whole heart. Not partially, whole heartedly. Too often I turned away from what I needed and ran to something detrimental as a substitute. I learned what I need will require faith to step out into the unknown. This is how my faith came in formation.
I asked God to help me love others with an open heart and it is definitely a process well worth it. It's a process that comes with a price. Learning how to love with an open heart means I have to be willing to let go of all the hurts and offenses I received. Love comes with sacrifice, it means I have to willingly put others needs first. When I think about closing my heart off to others I am constantly reminded that God loves me with an open heart, He does not turn away from me when I sin, He continually loves me.That right there touches my heart, it moves me to show compassion to others the same way God faithfully shows compassion to me.
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