As you know from my previous blog my experience at public school was a rude awakening. I went wrong in many areas, one was not using my spirit of discernment. I opened myself up emotionally to anyone who gave me the opportunity to talk. The first couple weeks of school I had this mind set that everyone around me would be friendly and have my best interest at heart. I made a crucial mistake and opened up to everyone around me. I was too friendly with the wrong crowd. I noticed I got the cold shoulder from a majority of the people I communicated with.
Looking back I completely understand, the students probably saw me as someone who was weird because I was talkative, they were probably thinking I wanted something from them and decided to distance themselves before the situation potentially got messy. In my head all I was thinking of was making new friends, but I quickly came to the conclusion that not everyone is interested in becoming friends.
I took it hard, but then I picked myself back up because I knew at the end of the day I had my family to go home to, I have a supportive group of friends at church and at the time that was all I needed. I was too focused on fitting in with the crowd and pleasing my peers. I was loosing myself by getting caught up on outside voices instead of focusing on who I am.
The truth is, I don't need to fit in when I am born to stand out, I don't need to be a follower when I am meant to lead. This took years of practice and I am still on the journey of learning how to voice my opinion and stand firm to the truth. If it wasn't for my sense of gullibility I would not know how significant it is to use my discernment when choosing friends. There are many pivotal lessons I learned in high school that I will share with you. Another lesson I learned was to appreciate my moms teaching qualities because the teachers in my high school tried limiting my intellect. I will discuss more of that in part 5 tomorrow for "Homeschool vs Public School Chronicles"
Be Blessed! =]
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