You know life has its way of throwing unexpected obstacles our way, we fight through our battles just for another obstacle to wait for us right around the corner. I am learning more and more that life is about resilience, what cant kill us makes us stronger.
My story falls into the category of many others, I was born and raised in the church, raised by two very caring parents and had the privilege of having three older siblings. I guess you can say being the youngest had its perks because I saw what my older siblings got in trouble for and this led me to knowing what I could and couldn't do. I knew what steps and precautions to take to keep from getting in trouble. But being the youngest also came with pressure, unnecessary pressure I placed on myself to be the "Good Child" and by me placing that pressure on myself made other people see me the same way which made me place even more pressure on myself.
The truth is I went through my struggles in life and I still am, I made mistakes I regret but I learned from them. Bumps and bruises come with life, it is inevitable. But what I have learned from my experiences is that it was never worth it to put myself on such a high pedestal. it required too much energy and a part of it was an act. I am learning more that embracing the person I am is a journey but it requires little to no energy. I fall into that category of striving for perfection but there is no such thing. Having that mindset leaves room for nothing but failure, life is about progression not perfection, it is a learning process.
I encourage you to embrace yourself, flaws and all.
Love yourself
Stay blessed.
Hi Jazzy, your blog is very uplifting, inspiring and overall makes you even more grateful for all that God has done for us - please do not stop blogging. I will share your blog with your grandmother and the rest of your aunts. I love and admire you. Your very proud aunt Maria