If it wasn't for my sad days I would not have the capability to experience my inexplicable joy. I am in the process of trading my attitude for gratitude. There are times I put too much energy and focus on irrelevance instead of placing the focus on the bigger picture.
If it was not for fleeting friendships I would not value the amazing friendships I have today. There was a time I did not make wise decisions with my choice of friends. I am now in the midst of friendships that challenge me to be a better person, to grow deeper in the faith, to love without limits, to take time for soul care. The friendships I have are phenomenal. Many of us choose to cling to unintelligible friendships because of an insatiable void.
If it wasn't for my penance I would not have the level of freedom I have in Christ today. In no way am I encouraging penance but it was when I was at my toughest points I was able to bask in God's love. The truth is God always accepts you for who you are not for what you do, we tend to make the mistake of trying to earn Gods love, but you cant earn something that was freely given to you. I am delighted to say God did a new thing in me, he took me as I was, cleansed me, and filled me with something new. There were many things I held on to that weighed me down, but I invited God into my circumstances and allowed him to pour into me while I was pouring out to him.
It is when I am at weak that God's grace is sufficient to carry me. It is when calamities overwhelmed me when God stepped in and rescued me. He did it for me, he can do it for you, the question is are you willing to invite him in your circumstance?
I think of the bible story of Joseph and how his brothers betrayed him and sold him off into slavery. There Joseph worked under his master, Potiphar. Potiphar's wife asked Joseph to sleep with her, Joseph refused the offer which led to Potiphar's wife accusing Joseph of trying to sleep with her. Immediately after Joseph was thrown in prison, Joseph kept his faith and remained a loyal servant. The man in charge of the prison saw Joseph as a well behaved man and gave Joseph the privilege to be the head of other prisoners. Shortly after there was a famine that led to Josephs brothers fleeing to Egypt (The land Joseph was sold off into slavery). The brothers ended up reconciling with Joseph. They asked for Josephs forgiveness and Joseph was given the opportunity to release the hurt he had in his heart from his brothers betrayal. (Genesis 37-42)
The reason I mention the story of Joseph is because God highly favored Joseph through all his circumstances, Joseph invited God in the midst of all his trials and God favored him through it. When Joseph was weak God was his strength. Sometimes when we are weak we try and use our own strength to reconcile and typically it does not always work out in our favor. It is when we are weak when God shows us just how sufficient his grace is.
"For when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Corinthians 12:10"
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